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Been meaning to do this for a long time now. Everybody knows I got my skull fucked with by the fine folks in Weapon X. Don't remember much at all about the man that I was.

So in case that ever happens again - or if I lose what I've got now - figure it'd be a good idea to get some shit down in a permanent form so I can get back up to speed if I have to.

I'm Logan.

That's not my real name. Heather Hudson and her husband Mac found me near Mount Logan. Naked in the show, livin' like a beast. They brought me back, showed me what it meant to be human. Not just an animal. North tells me he knew me as Jim Logan back in the day, but that doesn't feel right to me either. But I don't know Maverick, don't know him. Maybe he's bein' straight, maybe it's just another lie. More on that later.

Oh yeah. I do a lot on instinct. They don't usually fail me.

So. All I had was a pair of dog-tags that labelled me as "Wolverine". If I've got to have a stupid name, that'll do as well as any. Left a tag behind at Alkali Lake, but took it back the next time I was up there. Still wear 'em to this day. Not because I think Weapon-X has got a hold on me or that I'm gonna go crawlin' back to them.

I earned them. Blood and fire, pain and loss, they're mine.

There's some stuff I remember. Mostly about a cabin up in the mountains, by the treeline. Gorgeous place. Built it myself, by hand. I lived there with a girl. Native, I know that. Called herself Silver Fox.

Second-most beautiful woman I can remember. I know I loved her. Pretty sure she loved me. We wer e happy there, just the two of us.

Until somebody came by on my birthday. I was out hunting, I think it was for deer. Came back and the cabin'd be torn to shreds. Fox had put on her pretty dress and was going to surprise me with a birthday cake. Only she was layin' on the floor in a pool of her own blood. Dress'd been torn to shreds. However she went down, she didn't go soft or easy.

She was a fighter, Fox was.

I don't remember anything after that.

One other thing I gotta know about me.

I'm a killer. Got plenty of blood on my hands. Not proud of it, not ashamed of it. It's just how it's been. Stryker once told me that I'd always been an animal. All he did was give me claws.

It keeps me up some nights thinking that old Bill there wasn't lying to me.

More later. I ain't too good at all this introspection.

Date: 2011-01-20 03:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-weaponx.livejournal.com
x_wallflower_ wrote:
Apr. 1st, 2009 10:51 am (UTC)
So who was the most beautiful woman you ever met? Also, try to keep the swearing to as little as possible, if you could. There's kids that read these entries.

I'm sorry for your loss, though. It's hard to lose someone you love, even harder to lose them via violence. I would say the fact that you're at the school would tell you what a lie Stryker was telling you. The Professor wouldn't let an animal hang around young children. Least, not the killing without thought type, anyhow.

x_tarot wrote:
Apr. 1st, 2009 02:18 pm (UTC)
Laurie, there has been a filter on profanity on these journals for years. Anyone who should not see them will not. While we cannot automatically censor topics, words are (I am told, by one of the people who helped write it) easy. It was in place for Miles and Artie, it is still in place for anyone who needs it.

x_wolverine wrote:
Apr. 1st, 2009 10:20 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'm not a killer without thought.

And you're awfully nosy for somebody I don't even know.

You digging into my past for a reason, kid? Or you just trying to piss me off?

x_wallflower_ wrote:
Apr. 1st, 2009 11:38 pm (UTC)
You seem to share an awful lot, then when someone asks a valid question, you get tetchy. If you didn't want people to ask, you shouldn't share.

x_wolverine wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 12:39 am (UTC)
You're the one who drilled into my journal, past a cut, and then started reading.

Not like I shoved it in your face. You went looking.

x_wallflower_ wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 01:10 am (UTC)
*raises an eyebrow* You're a cranky one, aren't you? Question retracted. You could have simply said 'That's too private' and I'd have understood.

I'd perhaps talk to someone about the anger issues though. And possibly the memory problems. We've met before, or do you not remember a particularly interesting archery lesson? One would think you'd remember the people you'd threatened.

x_wolverine wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 01:33 am (UTC)
Kid, if you call that a threat you got a lot of growing up to do.

Yeah, I remember. Thought maybe you'd be made of sterner stuff than this.

Guess I was wrong.

x_wallflower_ wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 01:59 am (UTC)
You seem awfully quick to judge someone you've met only once. You stuck your claws to my throat, how was I meant to take that?

Feel free to judge me all you like, but if you actually want to know me, then you can talk to me when I get back. I have a train to catch, so I bid you farewell.

x_wolverine wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 02:02 am (UTC)
It's called encouragement.

Stay out of my past and we'll be fine.

Date: 2011-01-20 03:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-weaponx.livejournal.com
x_penance wrote:
Apr. 1st, 2009 02:33 pm (UTC)
You are Mr. Logan. My teacher and my friend who is coming to see me in the play tomorrow night. :)

I am sorry about Miss Silver Fox. She sounds like the very lovely person.

Date: 2011-01-20 03:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-weaponx.livejournal.com
x_adrienne wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 02:32 am (UTC)
Well, now that I know a little more about what you already know, I can work on the after-birthday events with you, if you'd like. If you have anything of hers, I can work with that too. Or the cabin.

x_wolverine wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 02:35 am (UTC)
I got nothing, kid.

x_adrienne wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 03:38 am (UTC)
You don't have the cabin? As in, it doesn't exist anymore?

x_wolverine wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 03:50 am (UTC)
I don't know anything about it. Where it is, nothing.

x_adrienne wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 03:52 am (UTC)
Did you have the dogtag at the time?

x_wolverine wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 03:52 am (UTC)
I don't know.

x_adrienne wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 03:59 am (UTC)
I'm understanding now why you got so tetchy about wanting to figure this out. It's damn frustrating, isn't it? Well, we can find that out, then.

x_wolverine wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 04:00 am (UTC)
Get Chuck or yer sister to go in and wipe everything you ever knew until, say, five years ago.

See how you like it.

x_adrienne wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 04:10 am (UTC)
Some days I think I'd be fine with that and I'd rather _not_ remember my life further back than that, thanks very much.

Except the funny thing is when you ask people to take away your memories, you seem like a coward, which is embarrassing. And in the end, knowing what happened to you is really the only way you can get over it. Or something like that?

So I do get it, which is why I'm offering to help you.

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